I believe God places particular people in your life to teach you specific lessons. God definitely gave me this little girl to remind that I can't control everything and to let go and let loose. When we had our first daughter, Kinley, I thought she was just like me, and to a certain degree, she is. She is more like the person I am today. It's when this little girl came along that my mom reminded me that Rowan is more like the girl that I used to be when I was younger.
She's very daring and brave. My heart has finally learned to quit skipping a beat when I see her climbed up high on something. She's been climbing onto things since the moment she could walk. I remember walking into the living room to find her standing on a table just shortly after she turned one. We had to ditch her crib earlier than planned because she's would climb up onto the top and jump down at 18 months. Her feel still hit the floor with such a force every morning when she wakes up.
She's the kid you will find exploring the depths of a puddle or finding out how squishy the mud is. She makes sure that we don't step on ants or walk on any cracks. She likes to stop and smell flowers and loves to pick them for me. She's a bit of a pack rat and you never know what you are going to find hiding in the nooks and crannies of her room. She's always talking about what her next adventure will be and is constantly making sure her suitcase is packed and ready to go. Someday she will live in a hotel or on a boat or on an island and somedays it's the tree in our front yard. And speaking of talking...she loves to do that...A LOT!
She's the mostly likely to be a blur in photos because she's on the move so much...or she's just trying to avoid them. She's already boy crazy and talks about marrying a little boy she met at the park one time. She's funny and witty and amazes us with some of the things that come out of her mouth. She looks like her dad and to say she is obsessed with me would be an understatment.
I would be lying if I said this last year at home has been easy on me. I've found myself in a weird place and having a hard time. But sitting down right now and reflecting on it and my time with her and her sister, this last year has been a lesson and one that I'm still learning and trying to figure out. I may not always enjoy or appreciate every single one of my days at home, but I do know that when I look back on my life, I will not have one regret about my decision to stay at home.
it's the wild one's that will set you free. -k.a.
